आज फिर जीने को जी चाहता है

एक मुठ्ठी ज़मीन; एक टुकड़ा आसमाँ,

थोड़ी सी हसी; थोड़ा सा ग़म मेहरबाँ,

कही प्यार को तरसे,

कही प्यार में डूबा किसी का जहाँ; 

हर दिल की उम्मीद के साये में,

ढलता जाए खुशियो का समां ||

चल आज फिर चुरा ले; 

कुछ पल की खुशियाँ,

चल आज फिर ओढ़ ले; 

वो सुनहरी धूप की चादर,

और लौट चले उस गुलमोहर के तले, 

जहा बसता था बचपन;

खेला करते थे आँख मिचोली हम; 

खेल खेल में यूही रंग ले,

सतरंगी सपनो की चुनरियाँ || 

आज फिर जीने को जी चाहता है;

हसते हसते रोने को जी चाहता है,

सपनो में फिर खो जाने को जी चाहता है, 

क्या पता कल कहाँ ले जाए ज़िन्दगी:

आज सारी ज़िन्दगी जी लेने को जी चाहता है || 

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Red Roses

“Ever has it been that love knows not its own depth until the hour of separation.”

― Kahlil Gibran

I love red roses; she did reveal once

Though he never got one for her,

She persistently believed; in the mystical power

Of love.

And today, here he was; holding them;

The bunch of red roses, standing composed,

But couldn’t resist his tears, as here she reposed,

Stoically.

Powerless, he wept, with regrets, and watched;

Her taking leave of this world,

In her coffin she lay furled,

In peace.

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Destiny's Sarcasm

This post is dedicated to a loving father who recently lost his only son in an unfortunate accident. My heart goes out to both the parents. No words of condolence can replace their loved one. This is my small way to pay tribute to their loss.

The day

I held you for the first time

In my arms; Like a proud father

Your presence made my arms to sway

Your first cry;

Felt soothing like sound of a chime

Pretty eyes, twinkling with glee

My world, you had become

Sacrifices seemed worthy

For you I have lived; For you I would die

Many deaths

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Today

I once again hold you; in my arms

For the last time

My senses nought, neither does my body sway

I search for those twinkling eyes;

Now lie unfeigned

I desire to hear you call me out

Behind me, you would hide;

Tease your mom with that wink and pout

You were my world, My Son

How will I live now? Today, I have died

Many more deaths

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I Am Here To Stay

I had been searching for myself everywhere off late

Somehow, felt lost and mislaid

Asked myself if people dropped having faith in me?

Or did they just stop feeling me within.

And then, one fine day, I traced her

By the walkway; on her way to school

Standing still, looking at him;

Extremely bony, pale and fragile.

Her eyes went soggy and her heart moaned

She went up to him, held his plate and emptied her tiffin;

He had the entire food within minutes

Smiled at her. She hugged him

Her gratification knew no bounds. She left. Beaming.

I smiled. Feeling pleased and walked away.

And with grand confidence, declared myself...

I am still present. In many more hearts, like hers’

Because, I am Compassion;

And I am here to stay. In all my shades.

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"In classical literature of Hinduism, compassion is a virtue with many shades, each shade explained by different terms" - Source

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And Hence It Waned, That Reciprocated Yet Unrequited Love

When the stars come flickering around, and moon settles at the heart of the sky. That’s when I start drifting into the hollow, swirling through. The hollow that you left behind, in the corner where you used to reside.

Searching for you throughout, in every nook and corner of this void. Tears rolling down; eyes piercing into the space above. Thoughts passing across my head accompanied with plethora of questions arising along.

Every Why? Every If? Every How? Goes up in the air.

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Not a single minute, not a single second. Not a single breath, not a single heartbeat. Misses without the thought of you. I fake that smile. The smile that you took away. I cover up all pain. The pain that you left for me. I gaze into nihility. Try recollecting my dreams. The dreams that you shattered to smithereens.

I keep wondering. Keep on reasoning. Your being so indifferent after all the affection. Your episodes of digress. I living your lies, with the clouded trust. You never understood. My significant leap of faith to believe in you.

Nothing mattered to you. My longing for those words of love from you. My endurance towards your rigidity. My holding back the feeling, to share the dreams I conceived for us. My forgiveness for you, even when I was deeply dismayed.

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You ripped apart the emotional realm of my heart.  Your rudeness squelched my inclination to communicate. Your stubbornness wiped away every possibility of closeness. You blew cold each time I supplicated for that one try. Now, your silence gnaws my calmness. 

Endings are grim and disquieting. Everything between us died. Bit by bit, in nugatory portions. You never realized. I was dead long before you did. My tears are just the meltdown. Like the aftermath of that avalanche. Every single ray of hope simply diminished away.

“May be, one day….I could rise from my own ashes…Like a Phoenix”

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Life Is Beautiful

This sinking feeling….I do not exactly wish to go with this but call it life, call it destiny or perhaps the this-is-what-was-meant-to-be like thing. Someday, I could prevail in understanding the exact reason for all that happened in the past months..I wish I would… This is the wrong time to think over these feelings and try reasoning with them.

Atleast that is what my head says…but do I go with what my head says or do I listen to my heart too…I may not be able to cope with the pain though…if I listen to my heart now. I let it pass for now…let my heart have some rest and I go with my head…’coz even my head wants my heart to rest for a while…

Matters of heart are very dubious…Let’s think and act practically for sometime...till I learn to swim my way through these high tides of emotions and pain…and till I learn to smudge the visions of past (to an extent) and shift+delete them from my head...

Well, is this possible? Shift+Deleting? I don’t think so… never. But I would love to move on. 

At the thought of living today (I would write about this next time this needs extra attention)…. I almost forgot what living today meant.

All these years, I lived with the soreness of past and the trepidation of future….I forgot to relish my “todays”…I completely stopped smiling and laughing….all I did was to just grin and that too half heartedly….I yearned to laugh my heart out…laugh till my stomach ached….laugh till tears rolled out of my eyes...

And yes, I did all these...one untroubled soul that I was…when I gave a damn about the past and the future…those were the days….Did I loose them...I ask this question to myself very often…or did I just forget how to live…Definitely not….I do not regret the way I lived till today…I did just what I wanted to do…I loved being the way I was…I was and am honest with my heart and that’s absolutely necessary for me..being honest…

It was just a detour from regular trail for a little while….Now is the time to deviate…not that I regret…but this is not the end of life. Life moves on…Time passes by…Some people are only meant to be a small part of life….and some remain with you for lifetime. Like Princess Diana said- “Life is just a journey”

That's why, I have decided to start living again…I may not be that young but who cares….I am older and more wiser now…I am young enough to reconcile with the lost moments….I am strong enough to embark upon not so light situations and understand their profundity… Embrace life as it comes and do what I wish to do and love to do…be with people who love me the most and love them back….

’coz…The last thing I want to do when I look back on my life is to have regrets…and think “If Only”….(Inspired by famous quotes)

Life is beautiful. Cherish it. Love it. Live it.

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